Where in the World is Keri T.?

I know – where have I been?  I guess the good news is that I clearly have not been obsessing as much over this baby thing.  Don’t get me wrong, I have been, but luckily I have been busy with other things and trying to finally get back into a routine of some sort.  Plus, let’s be really honest.  I’ve been watching AMC’s The Killing and I will be glad when I’m done so that I can crack open a book or do something else other than gorge on that feast.

I also have not been noticing every bulbous pregnant belly around me.   That is good.  Maybe they are all having their babies right now so they are off the streets.  

It seems like the main focus of our lives has not been Babytown but what Brett wants to do for work.  He has been doing this writing/PR thing for so long that he is actually really good at something he doesn’t want to do anymore.  It’s hard to break up with that work and venture forth.  He’s been searching and thinking and trying to find his way.  I feel lucky that I knew I wanted to be a teacher since I was probably 5 years old.  No joke.  

But yesterday, it came to him.  It seems so obviously perfect that it’s hard to imagine we hadn’t thought of it before.  He has tentative plans to head back to school in the fall, study statistics and hopefully get his Ph.D. before he turns 45.   For the guy who spent all last presidential election on the 538 blog, it makes perfect sense for him to be into this.  Statisticians are everywhere – he could work in politics, social services, education, psychology – you name it.   It seems like he has a direction and is excited about where that could lead him.    

And as for me, work life is good, exciting, finally feeling creative.  I am going to be teaching Humanities with an amazing teaching team to 10^th graders next year, as well as doing the teacher coaching stuff.  It really is ideal and I am inspired about next year. 

I haven’t let the desire for a family totally slip from the forethought of my mind, it just seems that it – having a baby or preparing my body to be able to have a baby - is becoming part of the routine.  I have been upping all the supplements I take – it’s quite an elaborate routine in the mornings.  I have increased my acupuncture visits, included some homeopathy and some Traditional Chinese Medicine.  I am back at the yoga, riding my bike more frequently, and overall trying to get healthy and happy. And all of that just seems like life, as opposed to feeling like this other thing that is taking away from my life.

With the results of the HSG so positive, we are really left to either work it out on our own or become a patient at Oregon Reproductive Health and I guess that neither Brett nor I are ready to make that kind of commitment.  I’m just not ready to be scared into accepting all sorts of interventions to get pregnant – yet.  I say yet because things can change.  They always do.  I’m willing to give it some time to see where we can get on our own – with some effort and planning.  If then, we aren’t able to get our little baby growing, we will have to explore options.  Till then, we will enjoy each other and enjoy the summer.

Some friend mentioned that I should start a Baby Bucket list and do all the things I want to do before pregnancy and a baby makes that difficult.  If only I could win the lottery, then I would.  I think my Baby Bucket list would really only be comprised of trips and travel.  And I don’t really think I can throw in a summer trip to Africa or Europe this year.  Maybe Christmas? Bike trip across the US?  Yeah, that’s not gonna happen this summer either.  Guess whenever it does happen I’ll just have to take said baby with us.  

So life has just been humming along.  It finally feels like things are smoothing out and calming down.  Our garden is flourishing, our baby chicks are growing and they will get new accommodations built this weekend.  The dog and cats seem happy and content.  We have a good life together and that’s where we are and truly where I've been.